This is reli frightening!

Read HL's blog.. she's gettin married.. the proposal must be damn romantic to make her say YES.. reli happy for her..

Saw HX's frenster.. OMG!! she just given birth to a baby!!!.. omg..

SL and KS who got married last year also got pregnant!

OMG.. these are reli happy things.. seriously i reli felt happy for them...

BUT... to see ppl same age as u getting married and GIving BIRTH... this kind of feeling is... bizarre... it's a form of changes..
in the environment I am living in...

In summary... I noe.. I'm getting older... argh!!!!!!

Getting married is exp.. setting up family is exp.. giving birth and taking care of kids is also exp.. where do we find all these $$??

Savings? WHat do we have? MOst of our income are used to pay off debts.. like school loans.. car loans etc etc...
There's hardly any leftovers for savings...

I was watching this tv programme on financing.. this girl was talking abt the impt of having passive income.. which is the route towards
financial freedom.. It talks abt active income, which is the money we earn from wk.. and passive income is income you earned not from wking..
like rental income.. speculation in stocks..etc etc..

Is this how we can grow money? yes.. absolutely.. bt the risk-adverse nature me is also sending red signal down to my brain.. higher return
higher risk..

But anyway.. all these things abt $$ push me a step forward to manage my $.. My current way of handling money is to leave it in POSBank and earn
a miserable 0.3% interest..

Now.. there could be better ways.. eSaver accounts for 2.85%? (much higher than even fixed deposits).. ok not that i only know it today.. just that
I don't really apreciate it last time.. I noe it was a higher i/r last time.. yes cos i procastinate too much la.. talk but no action.

But for sure I will park my money into eSaver accounts..

Anyway I've been wrecking my mind abt my career path... the year end closing just ended last fri... had been wking like zoombie these days and reli
confirm my dislike towards long hours job.. i think it has siphoned my brain and soul away.. handicapping the working of my brain neurons and failing my memory chips..
I realise besides paying income tax.. I have no contribution to the society. I seriously hope to do something that is more worthwhile and meaningful...
I have a bold idea of wking as counsellor in prison school... however i have NO qualification!!... sadded!!!...
I may need to study meaningful courses to upgrade myself.but I reli have phobia in studying and i have no $$$!!! sighhhzzzzzz..
This job is paying me too well.. and upgrading my lifestyle.. i have to leave soon.. else it wil be reli diff to GET OUT!!!.....

Dilemma dilemma.. what have I been doing these years??!!! Whats my contribution to the world??!!?!! oh sux man...
besides entertaining and humoring my traders to make sure they are happy.. whats my achievement??!?!?!?

Seriously I'm no longer young.. I have to decide on a path soon.. but seriously i have no direction now!.. no one can help me cos i shld be the one who
jolly noe what I want.. but but.. reli I hv neither the clue nor courage..

I yearn for work life balance.. I yearn for simplicity in life.. getting married.. have a hubby to dote on me.. and not nasty numbers and IT issues to deal w all the time!
And now I dun even have any hobby!. pathetic! real pathetic! sighhzzzz

que sera sera.. what will be will be~..